Story of my life

I've got everything I need except a man. And I'm not one of those men who thinks a man is the answer to everything, but I'm tired of being alone.

Terry and I

I am taking the attitude this year to being positive and not dwell in the past. I have to say I love having my own place and living alone, but I do miss dating someone and just having someone by my side when I wake up.


I've been blessed in life with meeting some good men and sharing love with them. Sometimes I think TV has messed up my point of view on how relationships work. All is fixed in an half hour, LOL, right.

Drew and I

I hope that this year will be a whole lot different in a lot ways and hope to at lease to meet someone that shares the same views as me and hold the same values, well at lease close to mine.


I want to meet a man that has his own place, so we still have our space and just take things slow and get to know them and me. Someone who likes to go to church and feels similar to how I do about it.

David and I

I don't think I am asking for a whole lot, but seams it is so hard to find. But you know what? I think he is out there and God will cross our paths one day soon. Come on God I am still waiting!


I don't need a man to define me, just one to be beside me. For the good times and the bad. To use a favorite quote of mine, I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.

Are you lonely?

Well the day started started out pretty good and to hell in a hand basket! I had a great time with Mike P and Mark last night, we went to Equals and had a few drinks so I did not get to have a lot of sleep. Had to be at work at 8:30 for a meeting and then I headed to church/

I have to say I love my church and I love going to church. Ron the guy that plays the piano at church wasnt feeling well today so we had to sing with him, LOL it still sounded pretty good. So far my day is going great! When church let out I came home and took a big ole nap!

After I got upI made a pizza nd popped in a "The year without a Santa Claus" and stated to decorate the house for Christmas.

Ok my day is still going pretty well, but then all of a sudden I felt very lonely tonight. I guess putting up all the stuff and having no one to share it with got to me. I am not looking to find a relationship, but I do want someone there with me and share times like this. What is a guy to do?

I wish I could meet a guy that likes me as much as I like them. Like the same things but have a few differences to make interesting. Wants to go to church and feel that it is important as I do. Someone who likes to go out friends or just be happy sitting at home watching a movie. Where is my knight in shinning armor? 

Is he out there? or I have I had my one true love in life and that is all I get? Yes I was so in love with a guy named Terry and took me years to get over him and now I a little damaged from it. We are friends now but I don't think we could evr get back together again. He is a sweet man just we were not meant for each other.

I hope one day i find that love that I felt with Terry, I have loved a lot of men but nothing like him. That doesn't mean that I loved the other guys any less, just there was something special in my heart for him. Each man that I have been with holds a special place in heart and always will. I can only think of one guy that I have dated that I never want to speak to again, the rest I still care about to this day.

I will find that guy, I know he is out there, just have to make sure I meet him one day!