Take a chance on me

You're so scared to fall in love, because you end up in the dust, every-time. I know you know there's something here, but you cannot get pas the fear. 


I can help you make it clear...

So when you feel like trying again reach out, take my hand, so how great it could be to fall in love with someone you can trust. Who would never give up on you, Baby take a chance on me


Meet this guy the other day, well over a year ago, but we just talking again, and something happened in me that has not happened in a long time and I thought would never happen again in my life time. 

It is funny, I have talked with a lot guys and dated a few too, but there has to be something, a spark, and that can be just said, it is felt deep inside of you. A feeling like no other. 


On my day off I talked with Shayne for over 6 hours on the phone and still had a ton of things to talk about and I don't want to hang up the phone when I talk with him. 


This guy has hit me hard, but I am a little scared. I am not scared of him, just I don't want to get my heart broken any more. It has been glued back together so many times that is a little on the fragile side.


I know I will take it slow with this one, I don't want to mess things up and I want to make sure he is Mr right for me. But right now I do feel he is the man I have been waiting for.


It is funny, new years eve 2012, I decided to give up and just except that all I would ever have in my life was friends. And you know, that good enough for me, but them enters Shayne to make me feel diffidently.


I think we will have a bright future ahead of us, but most of all I have to thank him for letting my head and heart know that I can still feel that special feeling inside. That feeling that makes me smile deep inside, that makes me want to yell to the word, this is it!


I have tried to date other guys and I have to say I talked and dated some great guys but I did not feel that spark inside. Don't get me wrong they are great loving men but you know what I mean, you can make that feeling happen.

Opportunity

We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year's Day.

Mark and I

I think I will start the New Year with a positive note. 2011 was a bad year for me in a lot of walls, but I need to count my blessings and not focus on the past. If I would live in the past and I will never be able to go forward. 


I have to say I start the new year off right. First I got off work for the weekend and then I spent it with my best friends. Mike P and Mark and I went to St Louis, David did not get to go because his mother is in the hospital, and went to Bad Dogs Bar. Jim and Bob own it, some good friends of Mike P.


We left town early and stopped in the bar around 7 PM so needless to say, we started to drink early that night. So you can guess, we were a little too drunk that night. It was nice to be with them and having a good time.


The bartender was someone that I knew from a long time ago. His name is Chuck and he is a very handsome man. I t was to look at him as the night went on. After 12 midnight and the balloon drop, which had prizes in the balloons and I won nothing, we went to JJ's Bar.


As soon as we walk in the door at JJ's we seen a few guys from Evansville. You know how it is, go out of town and see everyone you know for your home town, LOL! It was packed in there and everyone was having a festive time.


We ended the night by going to the Southside Dinner and the food there is always good, well when you are drunk, all food taste good. We had a very bad waiter and he took forever to take care of us. One nice think was, when I stood in line to the bathroom, I got hit on by a nice looking guy and we ended up kissing for new years. After the dinner, we walked back to Jim and Bob's house and went to bed.


So as for the start of 2012, it was a great start! So I hope the rest of the year goes just as well and this weekend.