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OK I am going to start to post a picture a day, of things as I see it. I have to give thanks to my sweetheart Shayne who has inspired me!

Something has changed in my Life

Too many people are thinking of security instead of opportunity. They seem to be more afraid of life than death!


I use to think this way until Shayne came into my life and now I am thinking about the opportunities that are ahead of me instead of being safe. My life has taken another jump start!


He has inspired me to do open my heart and my mind. I thought it would be a big deal that he lives so far from my me, but something about him makes it all OK. Also he showed me his blog and how he likes to take pictures. Which now I want to do the same thing with my own twist.

His eye to detail is amazing and he has opened my eyes to things I have never noticed. I am so glad he has shown me his world though his eyes. 


He takes a picture every day and I think I will start doing the same with my own twist. Now what that twist is? Well I will have to figure that out.

Well as you see, I think, well I am I in love with him. He is one great guy with a wonderful heart! He has changed my life for the better!

The one

I have to say I had a great night last night! Shayne and I have been talking for a long time now and decided to meet in St Louis to see if this spark is real, and I have to say it was!

We meet at the Harrah's Casino in St Louis and the moment I saw him get out of his car, my eyes lite up and heart started to beat a little faster. Finally a man that made me see that I still have a heart to love someone and not be that scared to show it.


He has the most beautiful blue eyes and when I look into them I see a wonderful man and a pure sole. I see a man that has opened my heart and eyes to see a whole new world.


I thought I had lost that ability to feel that after my last break up, 4 years ago. Thank God that I got the chance to meet him and feel the things he made me feel.


You know that spark when you meet someone? I felt it with him and trust me, you can't make yourself feel it. It chooses you, you don't choose it. Is this the one? The one that will be mine for the rest of life? I hope so!


I know we meet online about a year ago and only started to talk on the phone the last few weeks, but he does feel like he is the one for me. I know what you are saying to yourself, you only just meet him, how could you love him? Well my parents knew each other for 2 weeks before they got married and they were together till my Father dies for 60 years.


We have talked about "our relationship" and we both agree, there is no problem as permanent as a solution to it. So if we go into this, with this idea, then it will work. We will make it work.


We are so much a like but yet have some many things different. That the makings of a great relationship.  It makes me smile to see him how passionate he is about things I never thought about or even looked at. He is good for me as I am for him.

I have to give thanks to God for sending him my way! One of new years resolutions was to stop looking and just face it, I would be alone for the rest of life. But guess what, I wont!!!!!!

Being Happy

Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect, it means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections. 

What makes one happy? Is it money? being with someone? No it has to start with yourself. You have to happy with yourself or you will never be happy with yourself. Sure we all have things we would like to be, change or have. But we are all human.


I had a bad year last year and I let it get to me, but not any more. I have taken charge of life and not going to let things get me down like they did.


How I started to get to this wonderful place was first and fore most. I had to love myself. Second I had to forgive everyone that had done things wrong to me. Let me tell you the second one was the hardest thing to do. Third is to start to make changes in my life that I feel I need to change.


If you want to succeed in your life, remember this phrase: That past does not equal the future. Because you failed yesterday, or all day today, or a moment ago. All that matters is: What are you going to do, right now?

Now I am not going to say, that my life is perfect and I am the happiest man in the world. But I will say I am happier now then I have been in years. And I still have a long way to go but I am on the right path.

Take a chance on me

You're so scared to fall in love, because you end up in the dust, every-time. I know you know there's something here, but you cannot get pas the fear. 


I can help you make it clear...

So when you feel like trying again reach out, take my hand, so how great it could be to fall in love with someone you can trust. Who would never give up on you, Baby take a chance on me


Meet this guy the other day, well over a year ago, but we just talking again, and something happened in me that has not happened in a long time and I thought would never happen again in my life time. 

It is funny, I have talked with a lot guys and dated a few too, but there has to be something, a spark, and that can be just said, it is felt deep inside of you. A feeling like no other. 


On my day off I talked with Shayne for over 6 hours on the phone and still had a ton of things to talk about and I don't want to hang up the phone when I talk with him. 


This guy has hit me hard, but I am a little scared. I am not scared of him, just I don't want to get my heart broken any more. It has been glued back together so many times that is a little on the fragile side.


I know I will take it slow with this one, I don't want to mess things up and I want to make sure he is Mr right for me. But right now I do feel he is the man I have been waiting for.


It is funny, new years eve 2012, I decided to give up and just except that all I would ever have in my life was friends. And you know, that good enough for me, but them enters Shayne to make me feel diffidently.


I think we will have a bright future ahead of us, but most of all I have to thank him for letting my head and heart know that I can still feel that special feeling inside. That feeling that makes me smile deep inside, that makes me want to yell to the word, this is it!


I have tried to date other guys and I have to say I talked and dated some great guys but I did not feel that spark inside. Don't get me wrong they are great loving men but you know what I mean, you can make that feeling happen.

Conservatives

I hate to be negative, but I get so tired of hearing these republicans saying all these bad things about gay people and then saying they are Christian. I just don't understand? God teaches love and all they do is preach hate. There are 6 passages in the Bible condemning homosexuality and 362 condemning heterosexuals. So explain to me, why they have to hang on to those 6 and forget the 362? 

The God I know doesn't care who or what I am. He loves me no matter what. Where is the love that God talks about? Why are gay people such a threat to everyone? I just don't understand? Seams like there is so much hate in the world, so why do they have to add it? and even in Gods name?

What is funny about them is that they have secret lives and do all the things that they are so hell bent against? 

I get up every morning and see all the hate that my brother post and it makes me sick. He has no control over his own life. His wife and Daughter control him and he puts out so much hate about liberals to deflect from his own personal hell.

Sorry about the rant there, but my brother got me fired up!

Story of my life

I've got everything I need except a man. And I'm not one of those men who thinks a man is the answer to everything, but I'm tired of being alone.

Terry and I

I am taking the attitude this year to being positive and not dwell in the past. I have to say I love having my own place and living alone, but I do miss dating someone and just having someone by my side when I wake up.


I've been blessed in life with meeting some good men and sharing love with them. Sometimes I think TV has messed up my point of view on how relationships work. All is fixed in an half hour, LOL, right.

Drew and I

I hope that this year will be a whole lot different in a lot ways and hope to at lease to meet someone that shares the same views as me and hold the same values, well at lease close to mine.


I want to meet a man that has his own place, so we still have our space and just take things slow and get to know them and me. Someone who likes to go to church and feels similar to how I do about it.

David and I

I don't think I am asking for a whole lot, but seams it is so hard to find. But you know what? I think he is out there and God will cross our paths one day soon. Come on God I am still waiting!


I don't need a man to define me, just one to be beside me. For the good times and the bad. To use a favorite quote of mine, I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.